I told The Rock Thursday evening that I probably wouldn't be able to see him this past weekend. When he asked why, I explained that I was probably going to try to do something with my mother Friday night since my father is out of town. Then Saturday I had plans to go to the theater with a good friend and I've had this planned for months (otherwise I would have asked The Rock to go with me). Then Sunday is my clean house/do laundry/do everything else I've been putting off day. He said he understood but was pretty sullen about it.
When my friend and I were leaving the theater (which was about an hour and a half from where I live), my car started have major problems. I was really scared that I wasn't going to make it home. Bless my dad's heart. I called him in tears at midnight, he just talked me through the problem and told me to come to their house. It was about 1:00 AM when I got there and about 1:30 AM my phone rang. It was The Rock. He had been sitting at my house for about an hour waiting for me to get home. He wanted to surprise me. I told him I had car trouble and was staying at my parent's so my dad could check out my car the next morning. The Rock was really disappointed but asked if he could come over when I got home Sunday. So I said okay even though I had no idea when that would be.
I made it home around 10:00 AM in the pick-up I borrowed from my grandmother. (The joy that will come from driving that thing for a week, but that's another topic.) The Rock came over and we immediately went to bed. We lounged around until about 2:00 PM which was really nice. In our lounging, he said really, really liked me and could really see things going places with me. While that was nice to hear, I must admit my heart and head were screaming two different things. My heart said, "Oh my God, finally a decent guy!" while my head said, "You should still proceed with caution. Something's amiss."
Sigh. Which do I listen to? Is it time to break out the list of pros and cons? Should I slam on the brakes or just cruise right along? There is just this tiny nag in the back of my head that is holding me back. Maybe it's because I haven't been in a relationship in so long that I don't know how to act anymore.
Crap. I'm over thinking this.
We all over think things, it's natural. I think it's totally awesome that he was trying to surprise you though!! He gets brownie points in my book. Pros and Cons lists are always fun! lol
I have noticed, though, that almost every time you mention him, you usually also say something about being careful and you seem very torn. If your gut is telling you to be careful, then be careful.